Jim & Pam

Jim Halpert ruined me for every other guy out there.

You'll be on my mind, my dear destiny

You are the one who constantly come and go in my days.
There are days when you are just a memory, and I like you better those days.
There are days when the memory is just so vivid and clear
and that's when I have to hold back my tears.

You never let me enter your life.
Never once, not even for a split second.
Someone was living inside you
she breathes in you, she thinks in you
and you love her.

I don't know how it happened, but there you are now.
Out and free, vacancy in your mind, your body, your soul.
Breathing the foreign air that wasn't used to be yours
filling your lungs
keeping the emptiness bearable.

You look okay.
You look like you.
Not the way I remember you, but I don't look the way you'd remember me either.
You look bigger. Stronger. Mightier.
You look like you could be the king of inventions, and you don't even know it.

I know I said I've let you go.
I know I've said I would never have another word written about you.
I know.
I just couldn't do it.
Not when it's about you.

One day, you will be my destiny.
But until that day comes, you'll be on my mind
my heart
my soul
And I wouldn't ever let you go.
Not again.

Riptide

I am not a girl destined to be at ease with water

When I was five, I almost drowned

and maybe it scarred me for what seems to be my whole life

I like the bright sun

The sticky, salty air on the beach

The fishy aroma inhaled during the day

I like the colours on the giggly girls' cheeks

The blushing of the apples

The bronzed, sun kissed skin 

I like the sound of the waves

The fishermen's whistling

The small coffee shops overlooking the sea

The laid-back, casual conversations

But I was sitting there on the boat

Just slightly below the surface

The blue so blue it bled my eyes

The grey so grey it blinded my hearts

If all of these things are to be found only at the sea

Will happiness ever find its way towards me?