Craving

The first thing you need to admit is this:

You're lonely.

You like your own company. You enjoy solitary moments thinking about yourself and your favorite things. You strive towards a lifestyle of self-sufficiency. You teach yourself survival skills or find people who can help with things you gave up learning about. You like being alone. You're not exactly good at it, but you're getting better.

But you crave something else.

You crave someone.

You won't admit that your hands are cold and no amount of heat packs could warm it the way his hands would. You don't understand how good it is to let your lips feel his touch; you think you shouldn't know it from the first place so that you won't miss it, but you crave for it. You still won't admit that your life could and would get a little nicer, if you let him in.

You don't understand that you're not that good at being alone. 

Yes, it's probably better than being with someone who only messes up your life. Yes, someone can come into your life just because they choose to. Not everyone in your life will come because they just happen to bump into you somewhere. Someone can choose to be there; if they can figure out where the door is.