My Way

I do think that life is a fast lane. Rasanya kayak baru kemaren gue masuk SMA. kayak baruuuu aja gue arrived di LHR. tiba2 aja sekarang udah banyak kegiatan di sekolah. sekarang gue memang terbiasa sih, tapi gue masih kayak yang 'zong' banget gitu karena gue berpikir this is far too fast and I can't enjoy anything. semakin gue besar, waktu berjalan semakin cepat dan gue ga suka.

It's great to be young. My Italian friend, Valentina, said that in the end, life is all we got. and in life, we could only be young once. I know there are people who are young at heart, but that's definitely different.

Making life for the most is not hard, but it's also not easy on the other hand.

salah satu guru BK gue sering banget cerita tentang keberhasilan murid2 unggulan gitu. yang dapet beasiswa di luar negeri lah, yang berhasil ini itulah. I can say that it motivates me as well as it motivates the others, tapi gue nggak tertarik untuk meraih apa yang mereka berhasil raih.
bukannya gue mau sok-sokan sih. gue sih nggak selevel sama mereka2 itu. beda kasta banget lah.

Tapi masalahnya, I'm not that sort of person. I was made different way. and it's not fun to be the same as others even though it's hard to be (like them) sometimes. misalnya gini, gue mau kayak mereka. tarohlah gue pengen banget masuk M.I.T, yah andaikan aja gue jago fisika, gitu. terus gue belajar belajar belajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrr aja kerjaannya, and in that way I don't enjoy my life, tapi kemudian gue emang masuk tuh yang namanya MIT. I can't call that an achievement. that certainly is NOT. orang2 itu, yang diceritain sama guru BK gue itu, menikmati hidupnya dengan cara mereka sendiri. and since I have my own way to enjoy my life then I'll become somebody in my own way.

gue nggak suka orang yang bilang 'gue pengen kayak si X deh'. why should you be LIKE somebody if there's a broad way to be yourself? yes, we gotta have role model in life. Role model gue salah satunya adalah Andy Warhol, seriously. Tapi apakah gue mau kayak Andy Warhol? The answer is, no. gue mau punya achievement yang lebih baik dari dia, it's true. tapi gue nggak mau kayak dia, e.g, gay. I'm not against gay. I was kind of surrounded by gays when in London and they're cool people, as well as Andy Warhol.

FYI, gay is a trend right now. It's like a fashion statement. But I don't think it's cool. I just think people may have that thing but I'm just not into this trend hahahaha.