by Kai Z Feng

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Magnificent ciggie image. I'm against smoking sometimes, but it is undeniable that smoking pictures can be the most interesting

TV Couples!

I'm a complete sucker for American TV series. Like, totally. I watch 90210, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Vampire Diaries, Ugly Betty, True Blood, and 10 Things I Hate About You. I do NOT watch local TV. I'm not being subjective or anti-nationalist but see, I'm really objective. There's no local drama series that interests me, they're usually made of some crappy cliche ideas. And well, I'm a labile teenager slash hopeless romantic, I'm also a sucker for all those you-may-think-they're-cute-or-too-crappy-to-be-together TV couples!

Quinn and Clay, One Tree Hill

Quinn and Clay! Quinn and Clay! Quinn and Clay!! I prefer Quinn and Clay rather than Brooke and Julian now.

Patrick Verona and Kat Stratford, 10 Things I Hate About You Series

What kind of girl doesn't want a Patrick Verona in her life? Not me. Hahahahaha

Liam and Naomi, Beverly Hills 90210

I know Liam's really cute and Naomi's not so pretty, even my friends don't understand why I'm a fan, but they're just so interesting together. If they were just friends, 90210 wouldn't be so interesting to watch.

Elena and Stefan, Vampire Diaries 

I hate vampire. I really hate vampire stories. I know Stefan is like Edward Cullen in that Twilight saga but at least Elena isn't Bella's-kind-of vampire lover or Sookie Stackhouse's strong. And that's where the interesting factor lies. 

Teddy and Silver, Beverly Hills 90210

Okaaaay, sorry, another 90210 couple. I'm basically just thinking that this show is getting better. The first season was rubbish, and yet I gave it another chance, and voila! It's a better show than Gossip Girl now, really. It's not boring, it's a bit more fun. And I don't really like Teddy either but I like him when he's with Silver. The way he looks at Silver is just soooo cool hahahahaha.

How could you wait for this?

I had a Twitter conversation with Astrid and Karin about our upcoming trip to Europe. We're going in different times and ways but still Italy anyway. Karin will have her former summerfling as her local guide (HAHA, nice one!) Aaaaaaaahhhh I just cannot wait until that time!

Carnivale Venice, 2009

Un Dernier Verre

Zach Condon of Beirut

I just recently fell in love with Beirut once again. I mean, how can you not? And my current listening: Postcards from Italy. Let's just see if I'm really gonna make a trip to Italy or not. My favorite destination: Torino Verona!

At Least I Learn Things

Lessons you don't get from class.

I Feel Stupid and Contagious

If I could, I'd just skip high school. I know I'd probably miss it someday but I always know that's not entirely true. There are so many reasons to hate high school and yet so many contraries to say I love high school. Why does high school have to be such a massive bitchfest?

Scissors Sisters

summer 2009, Disneyland Hong Kong, Fireworks Display

My second sister gave me an envelope this afternoon right when I got home and said it was part of her assignment. It was a nice, mini pink envelope written in blue marker: "Dearest my little big sister". She was in the bathroom when I read it, and, what a surprise. It was a letter.

Dearest Nduti...

Hey ma' man!!!

Makasih yah udah jadi tempat sampah gue buat ngeluarin semua uneg-uneg gue. Maaf yah udah nyuruh-nyuruh elo terus. Tapi gue sayang kok sama elo. More than myself, sometimes.

Dan, be happy yeah... even when you get a headache with your math. I will always beside kok. Eng... even I would tell you that I'm not gonna miss you. You know that's a lie. And when I told you that you're a bitch, I never meant it.

Seneng deh, waktu elo tau kalo gue lagi BT atau bad mood, and you're acting silly like, "Kakaaaaaak.... lagi sedih yah?" I always laughed. Dan itu selalu bisa membuat gue gembira. elo itu kayak cookie dough di kala ngerjain tugas. emm... enak!!!

Elo itu kebanggan keluarga, ndut. Dan terlebih kebanggaan gue. Karena elo memberi gue kesempatan ngerasain punya adek yang ngebuat gue dan keluarga gue bahagia.

"Wherever you are, you will always be the one that I miss, because you are the one who makes my life worth it"

thank you honey... love you always

xoxo, your sister

I broke some tears of joy at that very second. I mean, you see, the very essence of life's happiness is in those small things like giving compliments to people, or telling them brutally honestly what you think they are instead of what you think they are not. She said that is the purpose of this assignment too, it's the secret of happiness. It works for everyone who has a heart, you know, telling them what they mean for you, because nobody was born with no purpose. What a very good education she gets in college. See, this is why I'm proud my sister is taking psychology major. I know, she had no intention to do it at first because she originally wanted to attend meds school, but you see, you can't get a "secret of happiness" letter if your sibling is majoring in medical or technology, they don't make these kind of stuffs. Some people are so proud their brothers or sisters make it to meds school, technological institutes or so on. But me, well, I don't need my sisters to be so clever. As long as they're my sisters (and sisters kinda have to love each other)I guess everything's cool.

P.S. She said she broke some tears too while writing it. hahahahaha

Thank you, sister!

Unhealthy Addiction?

I really love tea. I would choose tea over anything; milk, syrup, water, soda, coffee (well, except for Starbucks, but that's not my everyday drink. I mean, the grocery next to my house doesn't sell Starbucks) Tea also causes some major stains on my teeth that it looks black and disgusting, so I actually have to go see my dentist every month, though of course I don't. Haha.

Underwater tea party, anyone?

 My mum once told me I shouldn't drink too much tea (I have my own daily dose of tea. No less than 2 cups) because tea would make my teeth look yellow like those Brits with terrible teeth. I told her that maybe I think tea is so great just like those Brits do but she also says that I don't wanna have teeth like them. That makes sense. Hahahahaha.

Remember Lucky Luke?

Yeah, you're not the only one admiring his look on woman's heels. He looks cool and tres avant-garde!

Kids in the streets drinking wine on the banks of Seine River

Paris Je T'aime - Quais de Seine (Banks of Seine)

by Gurinder Chadha

I'm really fascinated about River Seine's banks in Paris. It was clearly visible that day when I had a Seine River Cruise on a boat that the jeunes Parisiens are having a great time hanging out there. They enjoy drinking, smoking, having good times with friends.... and all of that, is just so amazing. 

Rowling Wins, Meyer

Okay, I know I don't read Twilight nor Harry Potter but I know their quality. I mean, I have friends and people and they told me about them. Also, they have blockbuster movies coming out like every year and quality-wise, it kinda makes me Team Potter now. Like, really.

THE ICON

It's just impossible not to show some love to this lady. She's so pretty.

I Told Myself These During These Hard Times

Rose: I love you, Jack. 
Jack: Don’t you do that, don’t say your good-byes. 
Rose: I’m so cold. 
Jack: Listen, Rose. You’re gonna get out of here, you’re gonna go on and make lots of babies, and you’re gonna watch them grow. You’re gonna die an old… an old lady warm in her bed, but not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me? 
Rose: I can’t feel my body. 
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me… it brought me to you. And I’m thankful for that, Rose. I’m thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you’ll survive. That you won’t give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise. 
Rose: I promise. 
Jack: Never let go. 
Rose: I’ll never let go. I’ll never let go, Jack.

His Son is His Sun

Yoko, Sean and John, 1977

Pictures of You

It was Dela's birthday dinner on Saturday, which, to me, feels more like a good reunion with my best mates from junior high.

Birthday girl in the middle!

I really wanna make this post like a long, sentimental essay about them but I would bore you to death. But you know what? I don't care. I'm still gonna write it the way I want it to appear. If you look at the picture, you see that I don't look as if I'm in a party nor a private dinner. I didn't even put on make ups. I'm sorry hahaha that's just moi

Wulan, Nabilla, moi, Nesha

Me, Nabilla, Nesha, Wulan and Dela were best mates in 9th grade. We were all in the same class and we kind of hung out together a lot either at school or somewhat, outside. We had so much fun back then, ups and downs..... until then graduation came and we kind of grew apart. Nabilla goes to the same school as Dela and Wulan (and Pungky, but she's not pictured here since she couldn't make it to the dinner) but me and Nesha took another way. The way I see it, it's ironic. Nesha and I played Peyton and Brooke as in One Tree Hill (we're maniacs, I told you). Brooke and Peyton had always found a way to keep solid, and life as best friends is so easy since they live in a fictional small town. Tons of sad songs in your life wiped away just by stopping by Peyton's place, a short but smart talk and a big hug. But you see, the last time I met her was more than a year ago. We live in the same town but it's not small. Life isn't the same as on TV.

Brooke Davis and Peyton Sawyer! Hahahahaha

What surprises me the most is the fact that I kind of feel like I was facing a mirror when I met Nesha! (hahaha no, not physically, you might don't even wanna physically look like me hahahahahahaha) Not only because we REALLY love One Tree Hill and Sophia Bush but also because WE LOVE MILEY CYRUS and WE HATE SELENA GOMEZ. I should probably ask her more if she hates Twilight and Robsten too hahahahaha. We write blogs, yeah. Go check hers out! It's so charming, and it's just what she is. These 4 girls are very true to themselves, not every girls can be. Some girls wanna act like saints, but they're just what they are. They keep it real and true. The whole night we talked about One Tree Hill, our purses (which was the prototype of my dream Chanel purse. She said we're taking baby steps and price-wise, I'm in the first of 40 steps. Hahahahahahahaha), college, junior high moments..... you know, it's fascinating how she still remembers some of the talks we had. I never seen someone like that before. She wrote that in her diary. I mean, I write diaries too but I didn't take it that as far as writing conversations (yeah, once. with my crush). Oh, and about this guy who was dating her friend. This guy was....... the same guy who worth my tears :"((((((( well not anymore though. Anyway, she reminds me of something that really draw my feeling today:

The truth is, I don't really like to think about college. Cause that means high school's over. 
After graduation, everyone will probably go play basketball. Or sing or start record labels, -and I'll have to start all over. Alone. I'm sure I'll be fine. But like I said, I don't like to think about it.

Brooke Davis

Pretty girls. Hahahahahahahaha

Nabilla came kind of really late and that frustrates me at first because she wasn't on time. When I called her she was busy looking for a bakery just to buy herself some bread. Duh. I tried to dress up quiet nice because she wanted to introduce me to her (soon to be) boyfriend, too bad he couldn't make it that night.

If there's one thing I can learn from that night, it's that you CAN'T tell if someone's your best friend before you've been through enough. Like, how long have you known each other? You can't call someone who's just become your close friend for two months as your BFF. Remember that the last F stands for FOREVER and the term of forever is huge. It's complicated, sometimes scary. Or, how long have you lost contact with them and when you meet again you still feel the same chemistry as before? I suck in keeping old friends, and I'm just such a lucky bastard for having them. I just hope I could learn my "keeping old friends" skill as I'm graduating high school really soon. Oh, and also very important, have you gone to different schools? Have you gone through some limits, like, you can only go to some certain places which they can't go? I'm not saying we are the BFF but I just want y'all to know, you can't be best friends with just about anyone who came into your life without knowing what they will do to you in the long run.

B. Davis, P. Sawyer

wait, so who are these? hahahaha

All of a sudden I miss everyone...........................